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We is it that I cant just make up my mind and let it be? I have had this dream of being a Maternity nurse for years but never did anything about it. Why? Failure. That is the only reason. I know i am capable of juggeling things for a few years. Oh and theres the guilt that i seem to get when i think about doing somthing for myself. Even though it will benifit the entire family in the end. I am just at a loss about the whole thing. My mom is all for it. ofcourse she is 900+ miles away so she couldnt help with daycare or anything. There are many things to think about though. what will i do with Nodin during the day. oh and what about the house work. I dont have any fairies that can come and clean. Its not like i would go full time right now but i just dont know..............