Update on everything

So Friday our little pug died. Dylan found her and it was not good. So we layed her to rest in the back yard. Then brought Dylan to get his rash checked out at the hospital. They don't know what it is . Put him on predisone. Seems to be little better finally. Couldn't get Casey his meds for acne ( sever if anyone has any advice) so we settled for a diferent cleaning product. We went to the NC ZOO Saturday and had a great time. It is huge. The yesterday we didn't do to much and i wined and finally got a few hours to myself witch i spent at the Goodwill! found lots of good buys.
OK so send out the application to school to start in the spring. I didn't want to stress myself out by trying to crunch so much in in a few weeks like daycare for Nodin and studying for the placement tests. I really want to do good on them so i don't have to take general classes! Math is what i so need to study. again if anyone out there has any good books or websites do tell.
So it is Monday and its starts my week of being a single parent . i think i am doing OK. Jeff hates being gone all week but right now there is no other choice for us. we need the money.
well i am off to take Casey to his weight training.
p.s. thanks Trish for the support! i really, really need it!

Dealing with being home alone

So i guess I need to realize now that i have take care of the house and all these kids by myself for awhile. Not that my hubby wants to be gone cuz he doesn't but i still get mad at him for it. its like he tries to tell me how hard it is for him being out there and all this crap. well hello i have 5 kids 2 dogs 2 guine pigs 2 cats 1 bearded droagon plus everything else to deal with. i just don't feel bad for you. i guess it seems really mean of me to be like that. i want to study with school and i have so many things to do. like figure out how to pay for school clothes for the kids and bills . i hate having days like that when nothing seems to go good and you just feel plain crappy about life itself. I really need to go to the chiropractor so i can be adjusted.
I'm not sure if any of that makes any sense! i have been checking out the placement test online and i feel better about doing the college classes. not sure when i can get there or who will watch the kids but i have a goal. and i know if i really really try i can do this . yes i am trying to convince myself.

i think our summer is halfway over for the kids. i am glad cuz they really need to find some friends around here and i need my sanity back.

Finally a break

So his check was finally right and then some. I was able to go get a few things for someone we are sending a care package to , so that made my day. we will also be able to go to the beach Sunday! my hubby is on his way home and should get in sometime in the afternoon on Saturday.
On a very gross note... why do dogs like cat poop? why? it is so gross that i find my little pug eating it all the time. stop it!!! i can only just shake my head.
So i am going to try my hand at sewing some curtains for my kitchen. thankfully my family always tell me "oh mom the look great!" lol. i so know better. but at least i taught them to think of other peoples feelings.

that brings me to a thought about teaching your children about feelings and doing good things for others. today we went to a store and a man was sitting on the side of the curb with a sign. he was in his late 50's . i didn't even read the sign i just knew he could use a few dollars. ( i have been homeless before) so i dug deep down in my pocket book and had about $2 in change and i stoped to give it to him . he of course said God bless you. My 14 yr was in the seat next to me and i said "life is about karma" as i have said a hundred times before. i hope my kids will grow up and realize that. I really wish that more people would think of others and think about how they feel. ...
o.k. that's my thoughts for the day ! lol!

Not What we signed up for

O>K> So at what point to you just go crazy? We move over 1000 miles from a state that i lived in my entire live and hated to a state that i thik i like for a fresh start. We have the worst luck that you can imagen . if it is to go wrong it happens to us. My husbands job promiised so much and has failled on every single thing. its like What the HELL> we are broke and now he is gone 4 nights out of the week. I want to go to school but cant cuz i have no one to watch the kids. It sucks cuz hubby doesnt want these hours either. there may be an opening soon so we are hoping he will get it. it will me no overnights and i can start school.

oh and that brings me to the other problem. am i smart enough to go through school again? i have my doubts. well i really have lots of them! i do not want to be sitting around when Nodin starts school .

and my next rant is money . there is never enough. why do things have to be so much freaken money!!!! My oldest has 2 perscriptions that have to be filled and we have no money to do it. i have to start finding new docs for Nodin so we can get him in for his next surgery oh but wait i cant cuz i need money! uggggg!
maybe things will look better tomorrow! i can only hope

not much happening

Well today was a good day. Not much to do . i called the counslor at the college today and left a message. so i dont know what will happen. Maybe im not meant to further my education! who knows. All the kids are still very happy here so thats really cool. My wonderful hubby is stuck in TN . these hours are so not what we signed up for but we need the money so much right now. Its dinner time so im off to feed the hoolagins...

school

We is it that I cant just make up my mind and let it be? I have had this dream of being a Maternity nurse for years but never did anything about it. Why? Failure. That is the only reason. I know i am capable of juggeling things for a few years. Oh and theres the guilt that i seem to get when i think about doing somthing for myself. Even though it will benifit the entire family in the end. I am just at a loss about the whole thing. My mom is all for it. ofcourse she is 900+ miles away so she couldnt help with daycare or anything. There are many things to think about though. what will i do with Nodin during the day. oh and what about the house work. I dont have any fairies that can come and clean. Its not like i would go full time right now but i just dont know..............

O>K> Is school here yet?

So am I alone is this world of some days you love summer vaca with your kids and then the next you are ready to wait on the door step of the school? I know it is hard for kids to finds things for them to keep busy but really do they get up in the mournin and say "hey today i will try to make mom irrated !" Dont get me wrong I LOVE MY KIDS but some days i feel like sticking my head in the sand.

First Post!

Ok . So i am new to this but thought it would be a nice to start one! I like the idea of getting my thoughts out there i guess. It gets lonley i guess a little being a stay at home mom and being married to truck driver . Oh and also moving to a new state that i dont know!

Well we moved from Maine to NC about 3 weeks ago. The move went well with ofcourse the normal things that happen. Like flat tires and things like that!lol! The kids great though.

Well this is a short post i guess. I have to get going. Casey is in football at his Highschool so i am off to be the taxi!