Time for a update

I have not been on this blog in far too long. I have missed sprawling my thoughts out on here and reverting back to them as time passes.It is very healing for the soul to reflect on where you have been and where you know you need to go. As time has gone by for me over this past year i have grown and evloved so very much into having a more clearer kind of mind so to speak. My wants and desires have come forth unto what i have always wanted and i can now see the future for what i had hoped it would be.

I have grown as a wife and as a mother and its been hard and emotional and its been worth every tear drop I have had and every smile that has crossed my lips. I am a better person :)

Some days its not so easy to separate where you start and where the rest of the family ends. It seems us moms tend to get lost in the every day hustle and bustle of who wants this and who needs that. Husbands seem to come first also. I have seen the light you could say on this page in the big book of life.

We as moms need to take time and love for ourselves. Without us our home and family does not run as well as it could. Why is it so bad if we need a brake ? To say "fuck it" and walk out and go refresh our thoughts. fill our cup up with some new fuel.
I am by far not a religious person but I do believe in faith and I have to wonder why it is that we as woman and moms where born to have such a concience and to feel so guilty for everything we want or need but do not get because that sheild covers the way for us.
As you can see I have struggled with this for years and years. The guilt of just going down to get a coffee or just to sit at the park with no children so I can collect my thoughts. But today I sit here and tell you that I have a new outlook.

And I will start looking out for me and what I need to fill my love cup up with . That I am a person need and what I as a mother need to make a better place in this crazy, amazing world we live in .